April has been a difficult month over the years, and this one, with the Pandemic, has been a continuation of life’s challenges. I have lost loved ones in April, over the years, and last year I wrote a post to commemorate some of those losses.
Here is my Coffee Chat from last April:
On Tuesday, I took a nap, and then woke up to the pounding of heavy winds that sounded like thunder. When my phone rang, I picked up to hear my daughter crying. Her BFF Jessica’s daughter Paige was killed in a car accident Monday night. My mind carried me back to those teenage years with Jessica and Monica, close friends to my daughter, and how these women have maintained such a beautiful friendship over the years. I call them my Other Daughters. Paige was just a little younger than my 22-year-old granddaughters Fiona and Aubrey. My mind takes me to a photo my eldest son captured of Fiona and Paige when they were toddlers, with their curly blond hair, looking like twins. I wish I had that photo now! To remember. But here is Paige, on the right, with her mom and siblings:
- I am sad and feeling the loss, and while I have not personally experienced the loss of a child, I have lost close family members, including several young people (a niece, a nephew, and a step-granddaughter). My eldest brother died early, too. There is nothing that can replace what has been taken from us.
- While I am trying to concentrate on my reading and blogging, my mind keeps leaping to moments and memories.
- The horrendous winds of yesterday felt like the fierce storms of life that sweep in and capture our loved ones, with no rhyme or reason.
- On Monday, I finished reading The Night Visitors, by Carol Goodman; (click title for my review).
- Wednesday, I finished reading The Editor, by Steven Rowley.
- Now I’m going to have dinner while watching The Act, on Hulu; Thursday will bring another episode from The Good Fight, on CBS-All Access.
Today I had a lovely chat with my #2 son, who lives in LA. He had anticipated a wonderful year running his new Irish pub…and then the Pandemic hit.
He is trying to be optimistic about the future, but none of us can actually predict how this whole Pandemic will play out.
We commiserated with each other and talked about how we are dealing by watching Netflix, Hulu, and Amazon Prime. We also shared our thoughts on how Amazon has filled the gap with shopping needs.
I am loving my bookish moments. I also had a nice glass of red wine from a bottle brought to me last Monday by my granddaughter. I finished off the bottle today. Sigh.
Must buy more! But I haven’t found any I want on Amazon.